My Life, My Love; ♥

Today is my first common test in NP. Considering that i was a nervous wreck in the morning, i done pretty well for my POA test. At least i am able to balance my accounts though i wrote crap for my theories.

I really hate a few people in my class. Especially one girl.
I don't really hate her at first but i got the feeling that she don't like me at all from her body language, her attitude and most importantly the way she answer me when i talk to her.

I am always the one who approach her to talk to her or ask her questions and whenever she replies me she don't look at me to reply my questions, she just look away or look downwards to reply me. I don't understand why she won't look straight in my face and answer. Am i that hideous to look at?

There was also once when i said hi to her cheerfully smiling nicely and all that and guess how she reply me?
She merely look my way, saw that it was me waving to her and she only sort of do this action which is like the twinkle twinkle little star the song that hand action. No smile on her face nothing like so unhappy to see me like that.

What the HELL

My friend from the orientation camp was with me that time and she also noticed her way of greeting me and was saying how come she like this one.

Then today the same thing happen. I said hi to her and she looked at another friend of mine to say hi. To my friend only! How rude could a person get?
I mean like if someone say hi to you, you look the person in the face and say hi back to him or her with a smile or something which shows that you recognise the person and all that. Do you get what i mean?

I was so pissed off!

When i see some other girl classmates of mine, i approach them to say hi. NO REACTION!!
Is it me or do they don't like me at all? I talk to them, help them with their work and questions and this all lead to them not liking me.
LOVELY.......

My mum told me that if i am unable to even take this type of psychological torture, then i am unable to face the working world. This is a small thing which is irrelevant i should not be so saddened or angered and unhappy over this. If i am so unhappy over this type of matter, they would have won which is something i am not willing to give them the satisfaction of.

I CAN'T ALLOW THEM TO AFFECT ME THIS WAY.
I CAN'T ALLOW THEM TO HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER ME AT ALL!!!
SO WHAT IF I WON'T HAVE FRIENDS?
I DON'T HAVE TO CARE AS LONG AS I KNOW THAT I HAVE NOT BETRAYED MY PRINCIPLES AND HAVE NOTHING AGAINST MY CONSCIENCE.

THEY CAN ALL GO TO HELL FOR ALL I CARE.

I will still continue to be helpful of course, i am not so bad and cruel as to take revenge this way.
'sides i am unable to leave anyone in a bad situation no matter how much i don't like them. It is against my principle to do so.

Why am i such a sensitive person? SIGH*****
Get so worked up because of their attitude towards me.
And i can't believe that i am such a nice person now, if it was in the past, i would have plotted against them and have executed out my revenge to cause them psychological pain and unhappiness.
Think i will do it when i am in dreamland... at least i will have the satisfaction of imagining it out.
Sadistic i know.

Anyway MAY THEY ROT IN ****